It’s been a while since I’ve posted, and a while since I’ve done laundry, too. Life has never been so busy — even when I thought I was busy before, it wasn’t anything compared to this. But it’s good. Really, really good.

We open the bookstore in less than two weeks, and this weekend it started to feel do-able. (I haven’t been good about taking many “before and after” photos, so there goes any chance of a charming blog post about opening a bookstore. Oh, well.) I’ve been in a panic because there is still so much to do. SO MUCH. We’ve only been in the space since May 1 and working our full time jobs, and we’ve made great progress… But yikes. I wish we would have said July 1st instead of June 1st, but we’re opening the doors even if it’s not as ready as I wanted it to be. I wanted new books and gifts by the opening, and things here and there, but I need to take it all one step at a time and just do what I can. It will happen. But that’s the nice thing about bookstores — they’re always changing, always fluid. It’s okay.

I saw that this weekend was my alma mater’s graduation, and realized that I graduated from Mills 16 years ago. Sixteen years! I still haven’t paid off my loans or published a book, but it’s still the best thing I’ve ever accomplished… Next to this. If you had told me at Commencement that 16 years later I’d be opening a little used bookstore, I would have said, “No way!” But I would have been delighted.

So if you’re around Vallejo June 1st or 2nd or any weekend thereafter, please come in! We would love to see you. And please follow us on Instagram and Facebook: @alibibookshop


Nine Hours to Go… COME ON, DOVER!

Oh my goodness!

We’re at 87% with NINE hours to go! Wha hooooo!

Thank you to everyone who has donated and shared the indiegogo link — we’re floored and overwhelmed with gratitude… And excitement! It feels like watching a race — we’re at the heart thumping and nail biting and yelling stage.

(Which of course makes me think of My Fair Lady.)


But even if our horse doesn’t come in, we’ve still loved this ride. Thank you, thank you!

Now c’mon, Dovah! Move yer bloomin’ arse!

Last Call!

last-callAs of writing this, there are 32 hours left on our indiegogo campaign — we’re at 83%! We “only” need $5004, which is A LOT of money, but considering how generous people have been, we feel very lucky indeed. VERY lucky.

But we would still love to get to the goal or as close to it as possible — if we don’t make it, there are penalties on top of the other fees. Which is expected and no matter what, we’ll still be able to do a lot of fun things for the store. Some things might have to wait, but it’s okay. We just want to open the doors and sell books!

But since there is just over 24 hours left, we’re doing this last push, just to try to raise as much as we can. And if you can, please donate to keep an independent bookstore open in Vallejo!  (Here’s that link again.)


Thank you, thank you, thank you!!!

Five Days to Go Go Go!

It seems incredible, but in nine days we get the keys to the bookstore, and our lives are going to change completely (again). We’re excited and nervous and thrilled and scared and many emotions in between.

One of those emotions is grateful. We have five days to go on our indiegogo campaign, and though we may not make it, we’re so thankful to have come so close, and to everyone for their generosity and faith in us. It’s humbling… And motivating.

And we’re motivated to get as close as we possibly can, so today I have a special offer: anyone who donates over $10 today will be entered into a raffle to win a $50 gift certificate to the store when we open June 1st! You don’t even have to be local to win — I can send you books!

The link is here. Feel free to share far and wide! We’ll announce the winner tomorrow morning.

Thank you for all your support… I’m looking forward to fun dispatches from “The Alibi”! (You can already find us on Instagram: @alibibookshop and Facebook.)

I Have a Good Alibi.

It’s been a long time since I’ve updated, but I’ve been sidetracked, and I have a good alibi.

My first job in high school was at a bookstore called Upstart Crow & Company, at Stoneridge Mall.  It was a bookstore/cafe, and it was pretty cool… And I felt pretty cool working there. It was there I bought my first copy of The Portable Dorothy Parker (which I still have), and I must admit, I spent more time standing behind the counter reading or hanging out in the cafe than actually doing anything, and one time the big wigs came in and I was wearing a vintage 1960s minidress under my work apron (which I also still have), and the district manager asked me why I was wearing a dishrag.

ANYWAY, I was so happy to be working in a bookstore, surrounded by books and interesting people, and after high school, in college, and after college I kept on working in bookstores. The only reason I stopped was because my store, Doubleday Bookshop, shut down. I would probably still be there if it hadn’t.

But it did, and I went on to work in a vintage store and go to grad school and then start working in publishing, which I’ve done for many years. I’ve been so happy being surrounded by books and interesting people. I love publishing, but I’ve always missed the bookstore. I volunteered at the Oakland Friends of the Library bookstore and that was fun — I love recommending and hand selling books almost as much as I love reading.

Since that first job at Upstart Crow, I’ve always fantasized about having my own store. I’ve thought about how I would display things, what kind of events I would have, and what books I would sell. Even with the rise of first the superstores (no other movie has made me cry as hard as You’ve Got Mail) and now Amazon, I have always harbored this dream of having my own little store, where I would have my own daily literary salon, surrounded by books and interesting people. It was only a dream though, because there was no way I thought I could ever make it happen.

Well, it’s actually happening.

A few months ago, the owner of the local little used bookstore decided that she wanted to follow her own dreams and sell the store, and asked if I would be interested. I thought long and hard about it. The cons: for one thing, my day job is still new, and I’m still learning. It hasn’t been easy, and the commute is exhausting — 4 hours a day. I’m barely home as it is, and I’d be giving up my weekends. And I don’t have the money.

The pros: not only would it a dream come true and doing something I love, I also didn’t want to let a business in our town shutter and leave an empty storefront. Our downtown has a lot of potential, but there’s not a lot down there — losing the bookstore would be a terrible thing. How could I say no?

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So… Alibi Bookshop will be opening June 1st! The current store is closing on March 30th and we take over the lease on May 1st, and then we have a month to get it all together. *GULP.*

It also means coming up with the money to make it happen, so I started an IndieGoGo to raise funds. I feel weird asking for money, but I keep telling myself that it’s not for me, it’s to keep a business open and build a community, so we all can be surrounded by books and interesting people.

If you’re so inclined, please take a look and donate here — I would be eternally grateful. We need all the help we can get.

And about the name — the current owner recommended that we change the name of the store to make a fresh start. I kept thinking about it, and we were tossing ideas around, and a Facebook post got 300 comments and suggestions! But one of them, from my fabulous friend Kassy, was the winner. She suggested we name it for The Alibi Clock that’s around the corner from the store, and the subject of this Atlas Obscura article. It was a brilliant idea — it has history, and I love the clock. Plus automatic logo!


So anyway, yeah. That’s my alibi. I haven’t updated much because I bought an Alibi. I’d say that’s a pretty good excuse!






The other morning on the ferry, I sat with my friend and we were looking out the window at the scenery. He swore that he saw something in the water, and we started talking about what it could have been — a hopeful whale sighting, a bird, seals, or even a shark.

The conversation turned to sharks, and he told me how on his ocean dives he has come face to face with them, and one even curled up and slept in his friend’s outstretched hand. Apparently they leave you alone and don’t attack if you don’t provoke, much like bears and mountain lions and, well, any wild animal. But then he then told me a story about how when he was 15, he went to Florida with his family and was in the water and felt something bump up against his leg. A wave came, and it was filled with sharks — it was sharks bumping up against his legs! He said that his parents told him that he ran on the water, racing to get back to the shore. I shivered, deliciously frightened.

Of course I’m scared of sharks. How could anyone, of my generation particularly, not be? After all, if you were like me, you stared at this book cover on your dad’s nightstand:


I wasn’t allowed to see the movie, of course — I still don’t know if I’ve ever seen the whole thing, just pieces here and there. (No pun intended.) I did see Jaws 3-D in the theater and all I remember that it was super boring until the end when the shark comes crashing through the window. But the first one I was too young and wasn’t allowed to see it, so instead I just stared at the cover of my dad’s book, deliciously frightened, and thought the lady was stupid to be swimming naked and alone in the ocean.

I stared at books a lot when I was little — I mean I read them, but I was always fascinated by the pictures, especially my dad’s books. He traveled a lot and always had junky “airport books” and I was obsessed: The Amityville Horror, Raise the Titanic, and the the one that freaked me out the most: Scapegoat, the story of Bruno Richard Hauptmann, the apparent Lindbergh baby kidnapper and killer. I stared at the picture of the corpse of the Lindbergh baby until I couldn’t handle it anymore and would slam the book shut, only to open it back up and peek again, starting the cycle again, over and over. I was also obsessed with Time-Life’s The Birds, especially the photo of the owl fighting with the snake, and the fancy bird’s “headdress.”

Now lest you think I was a morbid child (not really, just dramatic), I liked not-so-gory things like Nancy Drew, and read them all and stared at all those photos, too. In fact, a lot of life lessons I learned from Nancy Drew: always carry an emergency $5 in your pocketbook, stop and eat in charming tearooms while wearing a smart frocks, you can write SOS backwards on a window with lipstick after you come to from getting knocked out with chloroform, and, oh yes, swim away from sharks, and quickly.


See, again, sharks! And who couldn’t be scared of them? You see on the news about surfers who get big chomps taken out of them, their limbs eaten, etc. It’s never a heartwarming story about sharks — it’s always an “attack.” (

But as I was talking to my friend on the ferry, I had an epiphany. I will never in my life come face to face with a shark. I will never surf, I will never be in the ocean where they are, I will never be attacked by one. I don’t need to be afraid of sharks. I’m afraid of a lot of things, so taking that fear off my list felt like a metaphorical weight lifted.

It felt like a mid-life epiphany, that I only have so many years left, and all these things that I have carried with me all these years like a fear of sharks and kidnapping (pfft) can now be shed like old skin. I mean, I’m not actively scared of sharks or kidnapping or anything like that, but it was just a long held belief that has been in my head. And it was gone. I felt delighted and lighter, and wondered what other “psychic clutter” I could get rid of.

I was so pleased with my new idea that I got to work and told my “work sister” about it. “No,” she said. “Sorry, but you take a ferry on the Bay every day. There is still a good chance you could come face to face with a shark.”


But honestly, I think that if there was a ferry accident I would be more likely to be freaked out about everything else happening more than a shark, so there’s that. So now where the “fear of sharks” had fallen off my list, it just opened some mental space for another fear about something that could potentially happen. But at least there’s now room for that in my head, right? Sure.

Anyway, I’m no longer afraid of sharks because I don’t have to be. Maybe this will translate to something deeper and more spiritual, or maybe it will be just what it is: kind of dumb and that’s just the way it is. And I’m fine with that.




On This Day

I just figured out how to update from my phone, which is nice — my hours on Facebook on the ferry can be used more constructively. I like that. While I love seeing my friends’ photos (and get annoyed by ads for bras, plus sized clothing, and earrings shaped like ice cream cones — really, Facebook?), I tend to get mired down reading articles — even just headlines — and start feeling panicky and anxious.

Plus the “On This Day” memories feature can be pretty loaded sometimes, especially this time of year. But I looked today and saw that two years ago I wrote one of my favorite posts, so the inaugural “post from my phone in order to get off Facebook” is actually something that I posted on Facebook two years ago. Oh, the irony.

But it still resonates, especially in the wake of Holocaust Memorial Day, which I’ve been reading and thinking a lot about. So here it is.

January 30, 2017

When I was a kid, I would always have a book with me, and read at the table, mindlessly chomping on food while lost in whatever story I was “in.” It drove my parents insane — they would tell me to put my book down and eat, and I would “as soon as I finish this one part!” Sometimes I could get away with reading all through dinner if they were talking, but if it were just one of them and me… Not so much.

One night I was at dinner with my dad, eating at the old restaurant in Capwell’s. I was reading “Anne Frank: The Diary of a Young Girl,” and was completely engrossed. I loved her. Here was a girl my age, but she was living in a SECRET ANNEX and hiding from the horrible Nazis. It sounded so “exotic” and unreal, and to my over-zealous yet completely ignorant and immature mind, tragically romantic. My father, who normally didn’t have much patience with my reading at the table, instead asked me to read what passage I was on to him. I winced — I knew I was in trouble for this rude habit, but this was a different admonishment than telling me to put my book away.

It happened to be the part where Anne describes using the chamber pot she kept under her bed, going quietly so as not to disturb the others or worse, call attention to their hiding place and being captured and sent to a camp. It was so abstract to me — I didn’t know what a chamber pot really even looked like, having the luxury of being able to get up and “go” whenever I wanted, in my bathroom with green and white wallpaper. I wasn’t mature or savvy enough to realize what a true horror it was — to me, it was still a story. I mean, I knew it was true,that she had been a real girl and this was a real diary, but it seemed so far away in time that it didn’t seem like it was truly possible. My main worry was that not only was I in trouble for reading at the table, but of ALL the passages I could have been reading about was about bodily functions, a giant taboo for dinner table discussion, and I could feel myself getting hot with embarrassment and shame. I finished reading and looked up at him.

He was angry, but I realized he was not angry at me. “That right there,” he said, “is why I fought in the war. So little girls like Anne Frank didn’t have to do that. But we couldn’t save them all.” He never talked about the war — to this day one of my big regrets in life is that I never asked him to tell me those stories — so I was surprised. I was old enough to piece it all together, but still young and stupid enough not to “get it.” It seemed so long ago (at the time it was only a little over 30 years) and that there was no way it could happen again. The world had learned its lesson, hadn’t it? My dad — my hero — and all the other soldiers in WWII had saved future little girls, so we could eat French Dip sandwiches in Capwell’s with our fathers, safe and sound in the suburbs, right? I was so complacent and spoiled, and even though I’m much more savvy now, I still didn’t ever truly think it could happen again. Until this past week.

I’ve been thinking about Anne Frank pretty much every day since the election. Mostly about her tree. She was trapped inside, and would look out at the branches of the tree she could see through that skylight, and it would give her comfort and beauty and inspiration. And when I’d be feeling like things were just terrible and woe is me, I’d think of that tree and feel like an asshole, that if she could believe, under her circumstances, that people were still truly good at heart, so could I. And I really did always believe that, until this past week. I think “in general” it’s still true — and seeing so many people come to the aid of strangers, especially yesterday — I know that there are many good people out there. But I now know that there really are some people that aren’t good, and they’re in charge. My dad and those soldiers didn’t really save us, after all. Maybe for a time they did, but I guess it was brewing and bigger than anyone had thought.

This administration is NOT what they fought for, lost their lives, limbs, and sanity for. This is not the America they knew. America wasn’t even all that “great” then — Roosevelt turned away refugees at first, too — but everyone came together and *that’s* what made it great. I’m hoping that will happen again — not some bullshit jingo-istic baseball cap slogan, but truly great, with good people out there fighting. I saw it yesterday, and we’re going to see it again. And I’m going to keep thinking of Anne, and her tree, and her hope. And keep thinking of my dad and that night in Capwell’s. And do what I can. How can we not?